Fuck this.

Like, OH MY GOD. let me be clear with you guys, If you continue acting this way, I can't guarantee that I wont run away from home. GOSH. I HATE IT. I'M HAVING ENOUGH FUCKING PERSONAL PROBLEMS WITHOUT YOU TWO MAKING IT FUCKING WORST FOR ME.

IT'S NOT EASY BEING 19.

Can't you guys just fucking ACCEPT that he's my boyfriend? And, I'M HAPPY. SO MUCH HAPPIER THAN I HAVE BEEN. I STOPPED BEING A BITCH. I STOPPED ISOLATING EVERYONE AWAY. I'M GOING BACK TO BEING THE HAPPY SOCIABLE GIRL I USED TO BE.

I really dont know how long more can i fight. I really don't. Even others tell you that IT'S MY LIFE. IT IS MINE, MINE, NOT YOURS. let me make my own history. LET ME MAKE MY OWN CHOICES. Let me be. Let me make my own mistakes. let me learn to stand back up if i fall. LET ME LEARN.

Don't expect me to be the perfect daughter you've always pictured. Cause lately, I'm not sure if i can keep up to your expectations. I'm doing the best I can. And, I really hope you don't push me to the edge. Everyone has limits. And, mine, isn't too far away, just so you know.

I'm not sure how much I can stand.

I'm so glad I'm going away for 3 days. I'm SO FUCKING HAPPY. I'm so fucking glad ill be at least 2 hours away from this supposed place i call home.

It's easy. How in the world is he affecting my life. MY GRADES ARE UP. MY SOCIAL LIFE IS BETTER THAN EVER. I'M SPENDING MORE TIME W MY BROTHER THAN EVER. I might go out alot. BUT, I DO TOO WITH YOU GUYS. My fridays are normally spent w you guys watching movies. I DON'T EVER HAVE TO GO THROUGH THE TROUBLE OF THINKING WHO SHOULD I PICK.

WHY CAN'T YOU SEE HOW HAPPY HE MAKES ME FEEL?

you've been in love before. You should know how happy you get. WHY CANT YOU GUYS BE HAPPY FOR ME? I don't get it. WHY CANT YOU GUYS ACCEPT IT. why?

He's not what you guys CLAIM he is. I know he's done stupid things to prove you guys wrong. BUT, he regrets everything he's done. And, YES, I know it isn't much. BUT, COME ON DUDES. haven't heard of SECOND CHANCES? I'm sure you had them at least once in your life.

Admit it, you're just being fucking prejudice about this whole shit. And, it's pissing me off.

I AM HAPPY.
CANT YOU BE HAPPY FOR ME?

Honestly.

Honestly you did it to yourself,
So don't blame me.

I'm gonna go
cause I got no problem w saying goodbye.

put yourself in my shoes.

You never think about me.

Do you never think about how I would feel? You think you're sad, but try being me.

Just, fyi, allowing you to give a random girl your number is NOT being sporting, If a girl was to be SO GOD DAMN SUPPORTING of her boyfriend giving his number to another girl, IT WOULD JUST MEAN THAT SHE WANTS TO GET RID OF HIM. so, Fine, if you really want me to be SPORTING about giving that girl your number, sporting I will be.

Think about this way. Would your be " SPORTING" enough to allow me to give my number to a random guy? If yes, THEN OKAY. We have a compromise.

I have no fucking idea how you could turn this shit on me. To think you're blaming me for NOT BEING SPORTING? and Let's get this out on the table, I am proud of you. I KNOW you can get any girl you want BUT you choose me. And, i am proud that other girls do want you. BUT, GIVING A GIRL YOUR NUMBER? How is that supposed to make me PROUD? Like. Seriously?

Your arguments are FLAWED. just so you know.

This SHIT is not to be put on me. I have tried my VERY fucking best to be understanding. but, this is in no way testing my UNDERSTANDING skills. NO.

And thank you SO very much for leaving me be and not trying to work things out. THANK YOU. I appreciate that. Yes, I UNDERSTAND that it was VERY FUCKING important for you to play with our brothers in the pool instead of trying to get me to talk to you. YES, I UNDERSTAND.

I dont get you. And, I'm not sure I ever will.