Just call me beautiful. (:

She read me the note he left on her bed

Snuck in her room right after she left

And put petals on the ground

Her head on his shoulder they walk down the hall

I'm left to wonder will I ever fall in love

And where is he now

She's with him, I'm in the back seat

Know it's not right but it hurts when they're laughing

And I've never been where they are

I wanna be blown away

I wanna be swept off my feet

I wanna meet the one who makes it hard for me to breathe

I wanna be lost in love

I wanna be your dream come true

I wanna be scared of how strong I feel for you

Just call me beautiful, Call me beautiful

Call me beautiful, Call me b-e-a-utiful

Friday night she wore his jersey to the game

In the front row screamin out his name

As he turns to her and smiles

Every where I look people holding hands

When am I gonna get my chance at love

My chance at love

My heart is waiting for your love

My hand is waiting for your touch

My lips just wanna be kissed by you

I wanna be blown away

I wanna be swept off my feet

I wanna meet the one who makes it hard for me to breathe

I wanna be lost in love

I wanna be your dream come true

I wanna be scared of how strong I feel for you

Just call me beautiful, Call me beautiful

Call me beautiful, Call me b-e-a-utiful

Idk

I need something or someone to spice up my life. cause honestly, right now, It feels like I have nothing to live for anymore. I have to admit that I feed on drama. I need bitch fights, relationship problem, SOMETHING to keep me going. I really feel like I have no goal in my life no more. What am i living for?

I don't know.

Top 10!

What's Talent For (WTF) competition that was organized by HELP was yesterday, and I'm sad to say that I did not win. ): But, it's okay. Hee, i was in it for the experience anyways. And, the fact that a high school "friend" of mine was a judge didn't make things any better. Gah, whatever.

I think I did pretty well for someone who has no training what so ever (: I mean, people actually stood up and gave me a standing ovation, that's gotta mean something, no? HEE.

I love the feeling when I'm performing, when all eyes are on you, and you just get the chance to mesmerize the crowd. it's amazing, the feeling. But I guess, the songs that I picked wasn't the best.

What are words - Chris Medina

Medley of Fireworks and Perfect - Katy Perry and Pink

It was a great experience though (: No complaints! And, i don't regret taking part. i mean, being picked as the top 10 finalist over 60 other contestants feels good enough for me. I'm glad I got the chance to perform. Even so, I think i've learnt my lesson of practicing the song for more than once before I go for a performance.

I found you.

Ohmygod.

i swear, i hate that you have a girlfriend.

Why couldn't I have met you earlier?

You're...everything that I look for in a guy, and

YOU'RE TAKEN.

-.-

I wish she would just disappear.

Brick by boring brick.

So, all that's been playing on my playlist these past few days..

Sleepless Nights

Tongue Tied

Give Him Up

Second Chance

When I'm With you

They're all by Faber Drive. (: I think I finally found my favorite band. :D

Anyways,

I GOT INTO THE TOP 10 FINALIST FOR THE What's Talent For Competition held by HELP college. (: The finale's this friday. Gosh, so soon! HAHA, but, it's okay. College has really been a way for me to share my music with others. And, Im really happy it's finally happening. Haha, even if it's something small, I mean, we all gotta build things up for scratch, no?

I'll just have to slowly work my way up there. (: So, basically, I've got the talent competition this friday, and Next saturday, I'll be performing for a charity concert held by my college. (: They invited my friend and I to perform, how shhweeeetttt. It's gonna be my first time ever performing with a band!

IM SO EXCITED (:

Mum : So, what do you get if you win first place?

Me : Erm, RM 500.

Mum : Second?

Me : ....Nothing.

Mum : Then, why do you still want to go?

Me : Cause I'm aiming for nothing less than number 1 (;

Sleepless Nights.

Put yourself in her position

All she needs is recognition

Love's not enough when you say it

Don't you know you've gotta mean it

Screwing up the best thing ever

Is something you'll regret forever

nothing last forever.

You know what still hurts?

knowing that I'm living a lie when I tell everyone that you don't matter to me anymore. Truth is, I tell myself that, in hope that maybe one day I'll get over what we used to have. I never told you this but, ever since that night we met each other, I've never stopped liking you. But, you'll never know that. I don't know why it is that I run to other guys then back to you, everytime. I don't know why it is that when the night ends, I just want you to be on the other side of the computer or phone waiting for me to be doing the same. I only need simple things in life to satisfy me. I just need the truth. My friends have told me numerous time to just let you go. But, they know, it's not that simple. Nope. It's hard. really hard. But, I can, i know it. In time i will move on, and our memories will be nothing but a blurry picture left in my head. but in the mean time, how i wish I could press a button on my head and erase off all the memories.

Worst part, all our plans.. I guess, it was all just dreams and plans, that are going to waste, again. Funny how we did so well in the beginning, and when you're finally here again, we're just fighting all the time. I don't even remember the last time we were happily talking to each other anymore. You know, the only reason why I asked you if you felt the same, cause you always make me feel used. and you dont even realize that. I don't want to know that i'm just like every other girl you talk to. No. Who does? I know I make you feel used sometimes too, even so, I always try my best to do things to tell you you're different. But you don't believe me, do you? You never did. you always think that just because I have so many guy friends that you're just like anyone of them. Ish, haven't I made it clear enough for you? Gosh, if this is what you want. after a whole 7 months of waiting for this moment to arrive with everything just going the total opposite as planned.

then, fine.

This is my show.

" He made you fall for him

Kept you hanging,

And then left,

Please realize that. "

It's advice like this that really makes me feel like I have true friends that really do care. (: It's amazing, you know? This feeling.

As much as I want to deny it,

The truth does hurt.

It stabs you in the heart and for days, that pain just won't go away. But, sooner or later, it will. so, just hang in there. (:

Idk why, but it seems like, for the past few guys who I've put myself into always did EXACTLY THAT. they call, text, act as though they feel the same, then ONE DAY, they stop, slowly, you'll know that it's all over.

Why are all guys like this? I guess, i need to change my frequency. :/

I just want to meet a guy who'll treat me right. (:

That's all.

Suprisingly,

it doesn't hurt anymore. (:

I'm over it.

you're not sorry.

So, what happens when we all stop caring?

Rock bottom.

Nice girls finish last,

that's why I'll treat you like trash.

It's not what I really wanna do,

But,

you only date bad girls so,

I'll give it my best try,

to treat you the way you want me to.

This one's for you and me.

Some just don't know how to change.

Just so you know, I've stopped caring. (: But, dont get me wrong , Ill always care for you as a friend, but, I promised myself that I ain't going to stoop so low for a guy anymore. Yes, true, i wanted you, really bad. But, now that I've cleared my head, It seems like everything's better.

I've given you chance after chance and you, just, disappointed me over and over again.

" If he wants you, he'll find his ways. "

Let me just listen to my friends, this once. (: If you really do want to see me, I know you'll find your way. So, I'm not going to worry.

Sometimes, i get really so damn frustrated talking to you.