Walking away.

I deserve so much more.

You have no idea what i've had to endure this pass few months. It was fun getting to know you and all. But, what i've had to go through just to be your friend wasn't worth it. yet, i kept convincing myself that all this problems were just temporary. Well, i was wrong. it's been what? 3 months? and still, problems after problems. This is not what friends are supposed to be like. Seriously.

Time and time again, i get stood up, but i just take it in, cause i tell myself that you're not gonna do it again. But, still, you fail me, Each time. You've even blamed my friends for things they did not do. As much as i want to be your friend, i cant handle it anymore. I just cant.

The truth is, i've been wanting you to walk away long time ago. cause i didnt want to be the one to leave this friendship. But, you're just too hard to be around with. Dont get me wrong, i dont think you're a bad person, you're just..How do you put this. well, you and i, we just don't belong in the same world. I really dont wanna have to go through anymore of this. Cause everyday, somehow, YOU bring me down when everyone else seems to be making me laugh. YOU. not anyone else, just YOU.

Well, i also hate the fact that you make me sound like a someone who's totally NEEDS YOU ALL THE TIME. you think that you're all that. sorry to break it to ya' kid, but you're not that good looking. You're immature and over senstive, NOT ME. you claim that you know me, but, you're far from that honay. Right now, I just really dont wanna talk to you, or see you, it's just that simple.

You've made it so hard for me to be your friend. And, i honestly know that there are better guys out there that i can pick from to be my friend when i need one. You dont deserve me, and im sure i can get over a thousand ppl to agree with me. Im sorry. But, this is just too hard. and, I dont see the point of me having to work so hard just so i can be your friend. cause, it's just wasting my time.

BTW, this is not just over what happened today, I've been feeling this way a long time now. I dont need you. Oh, and one more thing, you ARE a flirt. i just never dared to tell you that. PUH-LEASE. did you really have to ASK?! you're idiotic and god knows why i actually fell for your sweet talk sometimes. You've always found your way around me, you always got me to forgive you. But, not anymore.

This is the last straw. Im walking away.

I've gave you so many chances to walk away, but you never took it. So, now, I am. I'm so relieved to say that here on out,

I wont be needing you anymore. (:

P/s : i wasnt angry when i got your email today, i actually felt relieved.

Sweat + Confidence = Sucess.

i freaking wanna kill somebody.

Are you out to ruin my life or something? IF YOU ARE, please just tell me. Cause then i dont have to waste all my time wondering WHAT I'VE EVER DONE TO YOU?! i dont even know you, bitch. SERIOUSLY. you're so ugly and you dont even know it, or probably do. Wtv. It doesnt matter. BUT, JUST DISSAPEAR. cause i really dont want you to be in ANYWAY part of my life. You're causing so much problems for me. SO EFF OFF. i mean it.

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Well, my darling handballers did SO WELL (: We got 3rd in the whole of zone Sentul. So, love us or hate us, we're still THIS awesome! The best thing was, we only got to know that we were gonna go for handball competition that thursday after school, or was it friday. AND our competition was on monday. HAHA. the only "training" we got was that friday during concert practice. and all we did was play a game with the guys who TRASHED us so bad.

Jo : Guys. you cant jump to get the ball. It's too unfair for us!
Guys : Oh....okay....

5 Minutes later...
Xyang : Erm. Joey, can i jump? cause i seriously feel damn useless if i cant.
Jo: EEEE. fine la, fine la.

HAHAHA. Stoopid xyang. :P But might I say, the guys did SUPER well too! but apparently the BBS coach said that you guys were using bball style, that's why u lost. ): BUT QUARTER'S GOOD ENOUGH! OH, we won all the teams BUT Batu Muda and BBS. But, if we were given another chance to play with Batu Muda, i have faith that we would've won the game! Anyhu, we did SO awesome, and i just wanna say that

THE U-18 HANDBALL GIRLS ROCKS TO THE MAXXX!!!!
Love ya'll (:
Especially my darlings, Dhivya Nair and Nisa hurst.
(My fellow strikers / Blue housers )

I miss this already ):

The coolest yet weirdest bunch of ppl you'll ever meet.
I miss ya'll ):
ALWAYS AND FOREVER

Love and hate.

I dont know anymore. I miss you so bad. But what am i to do? I guess, im not the one. How i hope that things would have ended up differently. Dont we all make mistakes? Whatever it is, i just want the best for you. There's no one to blame for everything that has gone wrong.

So take this small confession as my price to pay
I've never been the kind to let go
But before you up and walk away
I'm miserable without you, you know
This silver leaves me longing for gold
Second place has never carried me home

I hate that i love you so.

Just go.

do you know what i hate?

I hate the fact that i miss you so much even when I know it's wrong.

We're two world's apart
But every step i take,
I take just to get one step closer to you.
No matter heaven or hell,
I just want you to know,
Ill never leave you alone.

1.28am

Victor Chan is annoying. He thinks he's very pretty. He says the BEST part of my blog is..." go msn, it's my dp"

now, dont we all wanna slap victor? (: and

Victor says: NO! they all want to kiss me.

Now i wanna slap him even more. HAHAHAHAHHA. peace out yo' OH! and we have a band named VMJ (: we're so damn good!

Sweet beginnings do arise (:

And i quote my brother " Mei, you're looking more like a maid each day" =.= That's how busy i've been, so you can't blame me for not updating. It's really been havoc. I had to hang the clothes, iron them, wash the dishes AND MANY MORE. oh gawd. it's a wonder how im still alive.

Anyways, Today's entry will be mostly photos. (: Cause if I don’t update it now, ill NEVER update it ( im not kidding ), and we don’t want that now, do we? :P So, we’ll start with IU day photos then sports day’s (:

International Understanding day was really good (: Haha, good job interactors. And I had LOADS of fun during photo session. I had a great time. Im so glad I didn’t miss it. Anyways, Congratulations to all interactors on making this event such an enjoyable and successful one!

Vern with his mini-skirt.

Happy belated birthday NUTHEAD (:

With the OC of the very succesful IU day- ANISHA (:

Dhivya (:

My darlings!

victor (:

Haha. We're crazy ppl. Sue us (:

Estherrr (:

ACMJ <3>

They took 4 shots. and they still didn't like it. =.=

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Okay, eventhough sports day's been over for around a week now, BUT STILL (: I need to post 'em photos. ehe. I got 3 medals this year. Gold for High jump f5 girls, Gold for 4*100m f5 girls and Bronze for Long jump f5 girls. (: Im happy. EHE. So, yeah, no need anymore explanations. A Picture's worth a million words, no? BUT, I need to say,

BLUE HOUSE, we’re awesome! AND NOTHING will ever change that. (: Love you ppl!

WHO ARE WE?
BLUE STORM!!!!

Losers. ):

Defending champions of 4*100m since f3. We're awesome (:

My partner in crime <3>

Zyang. AHA.

You guys were awesome, no matter what the results came out to be.

My darlingss (: + Kwans

We Gangstaaaass (:

PINCHHH!!

Gymrama ppl + Chloe (: