Happy new year (:
not so happy, actually. ): I just wish you were here right now. i'd drive over there, right this second if you were. We should be skyping, cause that's what we'd usually be doing around this time. If you were still here, I could call you just to ask you how you were. If you were still here, I wouldn't be feeling like this. I wouldn't be hurting so bad. I wouldn't be up so late, alone, wishing you were here with me right now.
I miss you a little, you could say, a little too much, a little too often, a little more everyday.
You drive me insane just wondering if you feel the same. But, the thing is, i just wanted to try us out. give me one month, just one. I need more time. really do. It sucks so much to know you're so far away right now and every second, you get further away. I wish you had stayed. just one year ago, we were sitting by the pool talking about crap (: i missed that. It sucked that i had to be so far away this new years. I just needed to hear your voice. I need to hear you voice, right now. I hope you do read this. for the record, i never got to tell you how i felt.
you remember, that night, we were skyping and you fell asleep infront of the com and i watched you sleep? you looked so peaceful. and all that was running through my mind was how i wish i could lay there right beside you, in your arms. you say the most ridiculous things when you're drunk.
you remember, that night, we were skyping and you fell asleep infront of the com and i watched you sleep? you looked so peaceful. and all that was running through my mind was how i wish i could lay there right beside you, in your arms. you say the most ridiculous things when you're drunk.
I remember us standing infront of the air cond.
(: so do i. you would have probably forgotten everything we shared already. but, i haven't. you know, how you keep telling me that im treating you as a fling, it may have started out that way, but honestly, im pretty sure im falling hard for you, which is such a bad idea. you're so far away. I just want you close.
you're like the randomest guy ever and annoying, not to mention. I love that we have our own language (: I love that when im around you, you do silly little things that annoys me. I love that we're close friends. I love that you'd always say " kiss one time " and i'd shoot you down. I love that we'd go all crazy in the car listening to songs. I love that i didnt let go of your hand when we passed through tolls which almost led to multiple car accidents. i love that i know how you look in specs. I love that we have the same taste in music. I love that we have one picture that we both look so good in. I love that you and i dont have strings attached. I love that we're so comfortable with each other. I love that you're so full of yourself sometimes. I love that i got to share my last few days of 2010 with you. I love that you drove so slow fetching me back cause you didnt want me to leave. I love that when you look in my eyes, i just wanna lean in to kiss you. I love that you have your own way of saying " pissing me off ah? ". I love that when i was spending time with you, time didn't matter. I love that i smile so much around you. I love that I can tell you about my guy problems anytime i want. I love that you're not afraid to be who you really are with me. I love that you've always got your friends backs, no matter what. I love that i almost scared you to death when you walked out from the toilet. I love that 2010 felt complete because of you. I love that you call me honey sometimes. I love that you always playfully tell me you love me. I love your kisses, your hugs, the way we'd laugh at the randomest things, lying my head on your chest listening to your heart beat fast.
it's the little things that counts, no? (: That's what i had to say.Please just come back to malaysia soon, please. ): And, how i wish what you told me that night were true. But, im pretty sure you were saying them cause you were drunk and lonely. Life makes love look hard. I still owe you that dim sum breakfast. (: and btw, you say i got plenty of guys, but you're the one with a whole fan club of girls waiting for you where you're heading. I can dream of so many things we could do together, but reality still exist. if you read this and you can still tell me that you really meant what you said that night, then, we'll talk. (: Either way, I dont ever wanna loose you as one of my closest friend (: Haha, being around you is just too easy, im really myself around you. whatever happens, promise me, we'll still be there for each other whenever needed (: Lastly, I just wanna apologize if i freaked you out.
you're like the randomest guy ever and annoying, not to mention. I love that we have our own language (: I love that when im around you, you do silly little things that annoys me. I love that we're close friends. I love that you'd always say " kiss one time " and i'd shoot you down. I love that we'd go all crazy in the car listening to songs. I love that i didnt let go of your hand when we passed through tolls which almost led to multiple car accidents. i love that i know how you look in specs. I love that we have the same taste in music. I love that we have one picture that we both look so good in. I love that you and i dont have strings attached. I love that we're so comfortable with each other. I love that you're so full of yourself sometimes. I love that i got to share my last few days of 2010 with you. I love that you drove so slow fetching me back cause you didnt want me to leave. I love that when you look in my eyes, i just wanna lean in to kiss you. I love that you have your own way of saying " pissing me off ah? ". I love that when i was spending time with you, time didn't matter. I love that i smile so much around you. I love that I can tell you about my guy problems anytime i want. I love that you're not afraid to be who you really are with me. I love that you've always got your friends backs, no matter what. I love that i almost scared you to death when you walked out from the toilet. I love that 2010 felt complete because of you. I love that you call me honey sometimes. I love that you always playfully tell me you love me. I love your kisses, your hugs, the way we'd laugh at the randomest things, lying my head on your chest listening to your heart beat fast.
it's the little things that counts, no? (: That's what i had to say.Please just come back to malaysia soon, please. ): And, how i wish what you told me that night were true. But, im pretty sure you were saying them cause you were drunk and lonely. Life makes love look hard. I still owe you that dim sum breakfast. (: and btw, you say i got plenty of guys, but you're the one with a whole fan club of girls waiting for you where you're heading. I can dream of so many things we could do together, but reality still exist. if you read this and you can still tell me that you really meant what you said that night, then, we'll talk. (: Either way, I dont ever wanna loose you as one of my closest friend (: Haha, being around you is just too easy, im really myself around you. whatever happens, promise me, we'll still be there for each other whenever needed (: Lastly, I just wanna apologize if i freaked you out.
sometimes, i do wonder if you're the one too.
