what hurts the most.

I don't need anymore broken heart

I'm tired of waiting for life to start

i just need a place to land

I wanna find myself again

Ready set I'm pushing through the door

Running faster than I ever have before

So take this as my final stand

Come on catch me if you can

well, i found out something today. and it really hurt. :/ I mean, it was what i least expected, you could say. I really, somehow, thought you wouldn't be another one of those asses who'd break my heart. But, it's safe to say, i was SO wrong.

You can't blame me for being who i am now cause YOU were the whole reason i ever became like this. You're the reason why i'm so scared of committing to just one guy. I can't do that. You were supposed to prove to me that not all guys are JERKS. but, apparently, you ended up being the guy who proved me right instead.

It sucks to know that there are no decent guys in this world that are actually like those in the movies. How they'd do anything and everything to get you and show everyone that you're the one. They'd go out of their way to ask you out on a date and make sure that they'll never have to see a single tear fall from your face. It sucks that there isn't anymore guys who would actually fight for you when everyone is dissing you, stand up for you just to prove everyone else wrong. And it sucks the most to find that there isn't a decent guy out there who wouldnt ever hurt you.

I've lost faith in guys. really. Can't a guy please prove to me that not all guys are like these jerks i've met so far? :/

Idk. Maybe one day, i'll meet that someone. but, till then, my heart's gonna be locked up in a very safe place. Like my godbrother tells me

Just treat love as a game and you'll never loose. (:

sometimes, I just wish i was a kid again.

.

I'm yours.

Hold my hand, and we'll run away, together. (:

You're my guilty pleasure.

Today was crazyyy!

So, my day started off at 10, when i had to get ready for ballet. Left around 11. Went to my friend's place and she made lychee cooler! then, i went for a shower then took off.

Had a great time today just chilling, walking around, drinking juiceee. i had lychee paradise. (: It's nice getting to know more about a person. haha. We went to the Arcade after that seeing as there was half an hour left till our movie started. I FINALLY GOT TO PLAY THOSE SHOOTING GAMES! and, APPARENTLY, i'm pretty good (; HAHA. The gamee was REALLY funn, i have to admit! (: I'm so going back there again! HAHA.

Then, we headed off to go watch, WAIT FOR IT,

Paranormal Activities 2

I, had my mind dead set on it being so freaky and all. BUT, it turned out..to be rather..dissapointing. :/ the show was so sloww and, so unrealistic. Idk, maybe it's just me. I'm hoping paranormal activities was BETTER. I'm pretty sure im not having any nightmares tonight! AHHA. :P I guess, i can watch horror movies, after all (:

Went for dinner at sushi zanmai. and we talked (: I'm really comfortable around you. Haha, being all ridiculous and teaching you things you NEVER knew. I would say today was a very good day indeed (:

Left around 9. I was an hour and a half late for my cousin's bday DINNER. haha. but, it's alright! better late than never, no? :P after that, i had a movie with my family. I just got back an hour ago. :/

SO, HELL TO THE YEAH. today was a very productive day :D

It's so easy to be myself around you

First (:

FIRST DAY OF COLLEGE TODAY (:

There goes the days of being a Wesleyan, from today on, i'm officially a Taylorian!

The first day. Well, I went there only knowing a few of my wesleyans. But, it's safe to say that i got to know a lot of new friends today. I'm so glad :D haha. Well, we had a few talks about all the facilities and everything. then, went to our classrooms where we got our time tables (: Mine's not too bad. I HAVE EARLY DAYS ON FRIDAY. :D *Phewwww* ahha. A day to rest. Heeee.

OH YEAH. we had an explorace where we had to run around the campus taking photos. It was rather fun. haha. I had to rush my teammates up and down the escalator. AND THE BEST PART, IT WAS ALL WORTH IT, CAUSE WE WON. :D We got like notebooks and t-shirts. (: I'm pretty sure by now i know my way around the campus. Haha. I have 15 classmates. (: Very little, i know. But, goodd. probably be like a family. :D My teacher, ms natalie is just SO cute lah. so hyper. telling her own jokes and laughing at it herself. ;/ wait. that sounds a lot like me. HAHAH. wtv. :P

Tmrw class starts (: so, I'll update then. Till then. Buh-bye.

First day of college. First day of winning a race. First time washing my car. Today's alot of firsts. :P

Baby, please don't go.

Time of my life. (:

OMG. CONCERT TODAY WAS AWESOME. i performed

Waka waka - Shakira

Nobody - Wondergirls

Firework - Kate Perry

There you'll be - Pearl Harbour

We are the world - Michael Jackson

IT WAS OFFF THE HOOK :D very worth it. even though, i was running up and down changing between songs and despite all the mistakes here and there, today's really a day that i'll never forget. Hee. I love my dancers, pei jean, reyna, jo ann, mui mui and her sister (: Haha, you guys are really WONDERFUL. we learnt the dance in 48 hours. Yay us? :P

Well, after 6 hours of running up and down, i went to watch a movie with my family (: and that includes my grandpa, daddy, mummy, my bro, my cousins and my aunties and uncles. Haha. The show was really touching. I got somewhat touched. and ALMOST teared. Haha. yes, ALMOST. For the record, i've never cried..EVER watching a movie. :D so, if you guys ever find a movie that can make me cry. haha. it's a BIG accomplishment. (:

Well, im off to sleep now. My friends are coming over. (: TIME FOR SOME HEART-TO-HEART TALK! i cant wait! ((:

Anyways, peace out yo!

I want nobody nobody but you. (:

When you and I collide.

Well, well, well. Today's plan was just cancelled. I guess, i can get more sleep. :D YAY ME. i still haven't gotten my cropped jeans for college. BUT, BUT, i got my college bag yesterday. and I LOVE IT. haha. (: Guess i'm a LITTLE more ready for college now.

I have been watching Gossip Girl all day. So addictive. (: No complaints though. It's pretty good.

*****

It's been two weeks. Idk what i feel anymore. I mean, it's nice to have you around and all. But, you're not really here with me. Time just isn't on our side. I guess, that's fate and something we have to accept at the end of the day (: there's approximately 180 days till you come back. Maybe when you're back, we'll see how it goes. But, till then there's a whole world outside for us to explore. So, we'll go with the flow. Whatever comes will come, and if it doesn't, then it was never meant to be. I don't want to be the reason you stop enjoying yourself. Life is all about taking chances. At least that's what i believe. I mean, things could've been different, but, it's not. i just want us to be happy. (: Whatever it is, just dont walk out of my life. I still need you. (:

you're just 3963 miles too far away.

going crazy.

I'm so bloody tired. 16 hours of non-stop moving around. 4 hours of sleep. -.-