Monday, February 13, 2012

Till the world ends.

Heaven knows I'd walk through hell with you.

I miss you so much, but i'm feeling a little better, knowing that tomorrow i'm going to be with you, even if it's for the last day. I'm gonna treasure every single moment we have left together.

i love you.

Sunday, February 12, 2012

We're not sad, we're broken.

It's just one more day till valentines.

I honestly though this year, i'd be having the best valentines ever. But, seems like everything can really change in just an hour.

You've been so good to me, and I really dont know how to let us go. Being with you, makes me so happy. And, we're just teenagers, don't we have the right to be happy? I know that our future's are just too different for us to go the long haul, but I still appreciate what we have right now, what we'll have for just one more day.

Parting with you is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I cried for 3 hours last night till i fell asleep because of you. thinking about how i'm not going to be able to embrace you in my arms or even kiss you and talk to you as frequently as i do. Calling you nicknames have been a habit for me, and i dont know how to stop. It's just too weird if i call you by your name.

I hate that my parents are breaking us up. I thought that when we finally told them, things would turn out even better, which was what happened for 2 weeks. until they gave up and decided we werent good for each other. I thought things like this would only happen in movies, i guess i was wrong.

Yesterday when we were on the phone, you said "see, now with my gone, you'll have more time on your studies and your friends" Do you knw how much that hurt me? I mean, whats the point when I won't be able to study with all these on my mind, and about my friends, they dont even wanna hang out w me. They dont care about me like you do. they don't buy me fruits when i feel like eating em. they dont drive me to college just because. they dont always find ways to make me laugh. they dont. you do.

I don't wanna loose you, but i know i have to. I just want us to be happy, we'll be alright in time. I hope.

I love you.

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Near or Far

I'm just so happy I found you. You make my days so much better and happier. I miss you so much and i cant wait to see you tmrw (:

Friday, December 30, 2011

It's 2012!

It's the last day of 2011.


This year, went by so damn fast. Oh my gosh. Is it just me? D: well, anyways, the same ol' same ol'. 2011 was filled with tears, fights, hugs, make ups, laughter, joy, craziness, love, hurt. Everything, you name it. (: But, I'm a stronger person and a better one because of it, i'd like to believe.

what made it different from the rest?
1. I got to travel europe to end the year. I've been to Rome, Almafi Coast, Florence, Spent christmas in Venice and ending the year in Paris with my wonderful family. (: Even though i had to be away from my friends for this 3 weeks holiday, I'm glad i got to spend this christmas and new years with my family.
2. I started college, met new friends, finally started performing on stage more frequently.
3. I met a certain someone, who has made my life more interesting. (: I've had my share of heartaches, and now, i've finally met someone who i can truly trust and believe is not going to hurt me. He makes my life more colorful, and even though the journey of getting to where we are now has been bumpy, with the chase to the cries to the laughter and the joys, we finally got here. and there's nothing i would trade to have changed this experience.

New year resolutions?
1. TO LOSE WEIGHT. (:
2. To start my youtube career. Haha, and i mean that by being more active on youtube, start uploading more frequently.
3. To score 4 A*s for my upcoming A-levels.
4. To get into a good university (:
5. To make my family proud!

Wish for 2012?
For my family and friends to be healthy, be free from physical and mental pain and sufferings, be happy, excel in their studies, prosper in their businesses. (:

Well, happy new year's everyone. <3
May 2012 be filled with all kinds of surprises and joys! (;

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

This always happens.

Why am i always the one putting in the effort? Why? maybe i'm being over-sensitive, but still, aren't you supposed to be different? I'm trying to make this work, yet, you dont even seem like you care. And, idk. gosh. Wtv. maybe i'm just sentenced to bad love forever. -.-

great.

Monday, October 31, 2011

For the first time in a long time


I feel like even when i'm around you,
i miss you so much.
and i don't know why.
I want this feeling to last.
Cause i know you're good for me,
at least better than the last few.
I know you'll make me the happiest girl,
but i still can't bring myself to letting you in completely,
and i hate myself for that.
Maybe in time.
But for now,
I miss you.



Wednesday, October 5, 2011

kiss me slowly.

There are two type of guys in this world.

One that will walk away when you start having problems and
One that will stay and fight for what you two stand for no matter what you say.