hurt.

Its so hard.

I woke up today. hoping that whatever happened in my dream would happen. you held me in your arms and told me you love me. But, something happened. and you left me. standing there. with no one left to lean onto. You, took my heart and walked away. This is just too hard for me. I think about being with you, everyday. And i think about having you to me, all by myself. But, i also think about walking away. cause, i know if i continue this, my heart will break into a million pieces. I want so much to find a guy that will make me happy and not go through so much crap too. but, I somehow cant, this is so not me. i just cant walk away. I aint strong enough too. so, its easy to say that I dont know what to do either. cause i know, our love is just strong, to even last this long. You're special, you know that right? and you're the only one that makes my heartbeat faster just by saying how amazing I am. I smile everytime i see your name on my pone. I laugh when you say the dumbest things. And i love the fact that you made me fall in love with you. you're so perfect, just by being you. I wish thing could've been easier for us. I do. I mean, if we really are totally and completely in love with each other, our love should be able to go through mountains and seas, no? Maybe, this is just not the right time for us. Maybe.

Love,
joey.